Other than not sleeping well, or at all, last night and having an horrendously vile cold that won’t give in, I’m feeling better this afternoon.
I spoke to E as well as my little sister last night, and my friend Mon in the Netherlands text this morning. Their support has helped incredibly, and I’m really grateful.
I spoke to Mum about why I was so upset yesterday evening, and tried to explain my reaction. I think she understood but I’m not holding my breath. My sister is talking to me again, but I think she’s still mad with me.
We has two estate agents round this morning to value the house; that’s three now, all if them quoting similar values. With luck we can get a quick sale.
I’m preparing the first review post of the month at the moment, scheduled for publication on the fifteenth. I spent a couple of hours earlier listening to two albums and reviewing them. I have a few books to finish reading so I can review them for the post. That’s cheered me up too.
The main reason I’m feeling positive this afternoon is because I’ve just been invited for a job interview on Thursday!
I very much need this job, it’s in administration, which is what I really enjoy doing. It appeals to the obsessive/organised part of my nature. I so hope I get the job, the anxiety about a new job is beaten by my anxiety about being long term unemployed. On balance
I’d rather deal with short term new job anxiety than long term oh-hell-i-need-a-job-now anxiety.
I’m spending two days this week, and every week until I get another job, at the my Dad’s work, doing some admin work for them. It’s extra work experience; I need something to keep me going for as long as I’m out of work. It’s unpaid but I think the returns, in terms of experience, contacts, my confidence and mental health, are compensation enough.
I just need to find something smart to wear…